Thursday, January 26, 2012


Is anyone else sick of hearing about some pregnant Victoria's Secret super model and how great she looks in heels? Is anyone else sick of hearing about the so and so celebrity who got her body back after 6 weeks? Well if you aren't, sorry but I am!

These people have to maintain their figures, it's their job! I am honestly happy I'm not a celebrity because sometimes I wake up and feel like going out in public in sweats and with pimple cream on my face. Could you imagine if Jessica Simpson did that?!?!?

I just wanted to write this quick post to let all you ladies, pregnant or not know this is a false sense of what real beauty is. Real beauty is a mom who has 3 kids and homeschools all of them, a single mom who is working ridiculous hours to give her kids everything they want, a mom who starts a free walking group to motivate other moms, a mom who prays for her kids daily, a mom who cleans her own house, a mom who cooks her own meals, a mom who spends time praying for her family. Real beauty is each of you ladies out there, pregnant or not, mom or not. We're each created beautiful in our own special way, despite what the world tells us. So if you're having a rough day or you feel ugly or you see a photo of some beautifully photo-shopped woman, just look at yourself in the mirror and know you're beautiful just the way you are!

I've been so excited to share this special time in my pregnancy with so many other women (I've got like 5 pregnant friends right now!). So if you're a mom, or a mom to be or even if you just read this and felt like it, I'd love to see your favorite picture of yourself!

That's my favorite pregnancy pic so was 2 weeks ago at 20 weeks, on the way home from our midwife appointment!

Saturday, January 21, 2012


This is a long post and if I lose you it's okay, but I think it's worth it!
Yesterday was a pretty interesting day. I had a fantabulous morning and afternoon. The hubs and I got up, lingered over breakfast, took a walk, I didn't shower or brush my hair, or change out of pajamas. I went to hang at a friend's house and in that time of hanging out a huge prayer was answered. I've been praying for more Christian women near me to hang out with. See we've moved to a new town recently and until we found a church in our new town I was always kind of lost for friends. I tried my best to maintain every single friendship I had back home but eventually I realized, people have lives and can't commit so much time to emailing and talking on the phone. So I prayed, God help me to find new friends here, women I connect with who aren't interested in only talking about baby stuff. That was another fear of mine...once you become a mom you aren't allowed to speak about anything other than diapers, poop, and naptime. But alas! God answered my prayer and I spent a lovely few hours in laughter, conversation, warmth, and snacks! I've been nervous about how women go from no kids to suddenly having a family and what that looks like for your social life, and for me I feel like God is really helping me understand...Yes relationships change, situations change, but you're not only a mom, and other moms desire these types of friendships too. So long story short I spent time praying yesterday to God about filling this void, and answering my desire for Christian women around me, and amazingly He did, like He always does!
After that wonderful afternoon the hubs and I went to the mall, watched the Country American Idol tryouts, ate pizza from Costco, and racked up on some great sales! The hubs got a few items (he's lost some weight and none of his clothes fit he claims) and I scored some new boots! I was stoked about the boots because shoe size is one thing that doesn't change during pregnancy, so I'll be able to wear these bad boys for a while! After all that, we came home relaxed, looked up a few things online and started settling down for bed. For whatever IDIOTIC reason! And let me stress this...IDIOTIC! I decided to look something up online regarding my allergies. I've always had horrible allergies but pregnancy has made them 10 times worse. I constantly sneeze, so much that I use t-shirts to wipe my nose, not tissue so I won't risk looking like a Red Butt Monkey with cling-ons. If I'm not sneezing I'm stuffed up and sound like an old man. So back to my internet search. "Cures for Pregnancy Allergies"--while I didn't find a cure I did discover that it's not safe to take Allegra while pregnant. Huh? Not safe, what do you mean not safe? And then it started. I probably spent over 2 full hours online trying to figure out what the hell happens if you take Allegra while pregnant. Because I take it. I've taken it every single day for the last 18 months until today ( I stopped today!). When I couldn't find anything that realllly said it's okay to take the Allegra the waterworks started, and for an hour I bawled. I haven't cried so hard in so long. I kept asking my husband, did the midwife say I can take Allegra? I thought she said I could? No hunnie, she told you not to take it. I just cried and cried while my poor husband tried to reassure me and comfort me. I cried and cried til my face swole all up and I looked like I'd been stung in both eyes by wasps. Hunnie you're fine, the baby's gonna be okay he kept saying. But inside here's what I felt: why did my comfort come before the health of my unborn baby? Why am I so selfish? I'm a failure. I didn't listen to my midwife. And I'm disappointing my husband, and everyone else who is excited about this unborn child. I'm letting people down. My baby's gonna be an alien. But I'm still gonna love it. My baby's gonna die before I get to meet it. My baby's gonna die right after it's born. And I am careless, and I should have researched every. single. thing I let come within 10 feet of my pregnant body! It was bad y'all, our poor dog was not even coming near me to comfort me she was too scared of my stung-by-a-wasp eyes.
When I finally calmed down my husband said let's just call the midwife. What? Call the midwife? Of course we could call the midwife! Although it was close to midnight at this point this was an amazing idea. But I didn't wanna bother her. Our midwife is amazing y'all. I know she prays for us and loves us and is so excited for us. She really puts our best interests and the interests of every woman and family who comes to her first. So while I was tempted to call I emailed instead. I told her my worry, what should I do? Can you believe she emailed me back within 30 minutes? I was told don't worry there's nothing else I can do from here. Stop taking the Allegra, like I told you before, but there's nothing you can do from here. And then the last line of her email...God is in control. See that's amazing to me to have the person handling the details of my pregnancy tell me that. How comforting and reassuring to rest in the fact that I'm not in control, but God is. I finished reading the email and was finally able to go to sleep. I tossed and turned some but everytime I woke up I reminded myself...God is in control. During the night it snowed, beautiful, white, and pure. It was like He was washing away the night for me. A clean slate to start a new day, and a new trust in Him. Trust me I felt Him saying, it's going to be okay, I'm here. Trust me.
When I woke this morning, I got up early because I wanted to leave extra early for work due to the snow and possible iced over roads. Oh yeah, I also had to figure out how to fix my face, my eyes weren't as swollen but my eyes were so blood-shot it appeared I'd been taking bong hits all night. My face was also pretty swollen like a lil' chubby kid who ate lots of Chinese food. I quickly got ready and something was nagging at me...I need to read my evotional! I realized I'd forgotten to read my evotional from the day before. My awesome day yesterday started out so awesome I forgot to spend time with my evotional. For me, when I read my evotional it's a piece of Scripture that I always feel like resonates with me throughout the day. I try to memorize a few each week, and it's something I can always go back to during the day if I'm facing a difficult task or even if I just want to be reminded of how great God is. Damnit I said to myself, I forgot my evotional yesterday so oh well I'll just read yesterday's today. So I get my computer go to my evotional and the Scripture pierced my heart...not in a bad way but this sense of calm that said, I told you so, you should've read this yesterday.
"I will bless the LORD who guides me; even at night my heart instructs me. I know the LORD is always with me. I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me." Psalms 16:7-8
Could you imagine how different the night before would have been if I had this Scripture to turn to? I'm not saying I wouldn't have had a major freakout or anything, but I would have been comforted and I would have trusted God not myself. I would have known I can't be shaken, God is with me, He's right beside me. David wasn't shaken because He knew the presence of God was with him. My night wouldn't have been such a wreck if I allowed the presence of God to be with me. God is always there, but we don't always allow Him into our lives. So for me, I know my days always seems off if I'm not recognizing the presence of God. I'm sharing this to keep myself accountable. So I don't forget to read my evotionals, it's not really forgetting more or less it's that I find time for other things than Him. So here's my challenge to myself...What can I remove from my daily routine to spend more time with Him? Maybe I just need to wake up a little earlier!
Time in the Word is amazing and life changing and I desire it and need it. Thank you God that even when I try to resist you, you always pull me back in!
Have a good rest of the weekend y'all!

Thursday, January 19, 2012


Thursdays are kind of hard days for me sometimes. Because of my work schedule I find that when Thursday comes it's really hit or miss. I either am so stoked to have another day off, or I'm bummed because I work on Saturdays, or I'm overwhelmed by my to-do list. Either way, I thought I'd share something special with you guys today.
Each morning I get a devotional emailed to me. I like to read it in addition to my normal morning Bible study. The scripture I was emailed yesterday was awesome. It moved me to tears. I know that God loves me, so much in fact that He sent His son to die in my place. To cover all of not only my sins but the sins of every man. Although I know and believe all of that I still have days where I doubt God, or choose my way rather than His. But this scripture so clearly reminded me that God always shows up, He loves me, He loves my husband, He loves my growing baby, and He's never leaving me. To think that God knows my name is mind-blowing! But if you're reading this and aren't a follower of Christ please know that God also knows your name.

TODAY'S VERSE "Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you! See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands." Isaiah 49:15 (NIV) "God has said, 'Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.'" Hebrews 13:5 (NIV)
TODAY'S THOUGHT The union between a mother and her little child is incredible. I watched my daughter-in-law interact with our new six-week old granddaughter, doting over her. It was so tender. Our granddaughter laid there wiggling, smiling, making funny faces and squealing. I love the squeals! What an illustration. Like a mother's love, God's love for you is born out of creating you. God has formed you and has a unique love for you. But that is where the comparisons between God and a mother end. You see, it is possible for a mother to neglect her child. Incomprehensible as it may seem, a mother may even abandon and forget her child. But not God! He promises; though a mother may forget her child, I WILL NEVER, NEVER, NEVER FORGET YOU. How can you be sure? He has engraved your name on His hands. He has etched you into the very flesh of His hands, a place He will never forget. Today, choose to rest in this truth; He knows your name, He loves you, He will never leave you or forsake you.


While browsing through the new SELF magazine yesterday, I came across this article called DETOX YOUR DIET. It's a bunch of recipes and a workout plan (created by Jillian Michaels). While I'm obviously not trying to lose weight I did want to check out the recipes! YUM!
Before the recipes there's a section talking about 5 FOOD ADDITIVES that can contribute to weight gain and extra fat sticking to your hips. I was curious because I thought hmmm if these additives aid in fat storage and weight gain, surely they aren't good for an average person!

Our family is going to work on avoiding these foods for the sake of ourselves and our baby on the way!


*Aspartame, Saccharin, Sucralose--all artificial sweeteners, and aspartame and saccharin may also lead to cancer, ICK!
We are going to instead replace these with honey or maple syrup, but we're really not too big on extra sweeteners anyways. I used to get bad stomachaches when I ingested this stuff (before pregnancy). Fructose is also pretty bad too (when it's not in the natural form of fruit). So that means Agave syrup is also out. Whenever we get a craving for something sweet we're gonna try to stick to fruit, it's natural after all!
*Iron--overdoing it is the big concern. Really only need 18 milligrams per day. Since we don't eat red meat that often and I feel that my prenatal vitamins give me a good amount I think this isn't a big issue for us.
*Monoacylglycerol--yep say that 5 times fast! This stuff binds oil and water in things like baked goods and ice cream. Again, how good is ice cream really for you?

We're going to focus on less processed and more fresh!

The full article is in the JANUARY 2012 issue of SELF magazine. (jillian michaels is on the cover!)

Wednesday, January 18, 2012


Today is my lazy day, but I decided to write a post from the comfort of my bed, while still in pajamas. I've relaxed so much today, it's been awesome! I've not brushed my teeth, I've not done much of anything, except I did eat a frozen pizza for lunch, well I cooked it first duh!
I'll be having a baby shower back in my hometown in a few months and it's exciting yet stressful. While most people go the traditional route of registering for gifts somewhere and compiling a list of everything they'll need before the baby comes we've decided not to do this. Is it because I'm trying to be a complete B***H just because I'm pregnant? Is it because I want to try to be difficult? Is it because I want to try to go against the grain? NO! It's because registries are stressful! Not only are they time consuming, the way my mind works when I see an item to register for I have to spend time comparing every other similar item and brand and make sure I'm getting the best one. I will literally stay awake at night thinking to myself, did I register for the right item? Is this realllllly the best bottle warmer? Etc. And for me that's a waste of time!
Also, I think that while everyone has their idea of what worked for them it may not work for me and my family. Just because you breastfed doesnt mean I'll be able to, just because you used a rocking chair doesn't mean I will, just because you used a special drying rack for bottles doesn't mean I will, just because you love a Moby Wrap doesn't mean I will, just because you love a Baby Bjorn carrier doesn't mean I will, I could go on and on! So what my husband and I feel like will work for us is doing away with the registry all together! We didn't do one for our wedding and we managed, and we think we'll be fine without one for the baby! We have no idea what the baby will and won't like, heck as bad as this sounds, we may not even ever get to meet our baby! Hey if my baby dies before I get to meet it, are you going to help me return all of those shower gifts? Didn't think so!
So, here's what's going to work for us...not registering, but instead telling people they can bring giftcards or gently used baby items they already have. We love this idea! We live near Target and since I'll be traveling back to our home after the shower, not having to lug a bunch of items will be extremely helpful for us. Also, we have a feeling we'll be given lots of items (like we already have) so we just figure once I return home we can go shopping and get the absolute necessities together. While some people think we're crazy OH WELL!
We've really been so blessed this entire pregnancy and we just want to rejoice in the fact that we're having a baby...everything else will fall into place. We really want our shower to be about laughter and happiness over the fact that we're having a baby!
While I know this may not work for everyone, I just want any other pregnant women out there to know...stick to your guns, just because everyone else is telling you you've got to do something you don't! Do what feels right for your family, and what works for your family!
PS I am really looking forward to playing the poopy diaper game with candy at the shower though ; )

Tuesday, January 17, 2012


I've noticed lately that when people find out you're pregnant that's all they care about. It's really hard to have conversations with others about things other than the baby, your pregnancy, etc. And honestly that bothers me! There's more to me than just the fact that I'm pregnant. I enjoy reading, and praying, and singing, and spending time with my husband, and movies, and looking and crap online, and cooking, and eating, and catching up on celebrity gossip, the list goes on and on. But really there's more to me than just the fact that I'm pregnant.
Once the baby's born I also don't only want to hang out with people in kid related ways. Please don't take this in a way that assumes I'm not excited about motherhood and pregnancy, because I am I promise I am. And my pregnancy has been so awesome! Easy, no morning sickness, no crazy cravings, honestly very easy.
But before I'm a mom I'm a wife and I'm a daughter and a friend. So please, can we talk about something other than babies and baby showers. For instance fill me in on your exciting life of sex, drugs, and rock and roll! And random one night stands, and drunk nights, because we all know I'm not doing that no more!

Sunday, January 15, 2012


I've found that as my belly growth is steadily progressing I've decided to start calling myself a backwards turtle. That's what I look like. How sexy is that? I mean don't get me wrong, I think all pregnant women are beautiful, but how I feel about myself...
I'm a bit off balance, parts are growing, I can't wear cute thongs or any cute underwear anymore for that matter, boobs are getting so big the only thing that can hold them up is a super bra I made outta heavy duty duct tape! And with the size of my growing body, it's made shaving, showering, even wiping my butt a little difficult! How's that for feeling sexy? I do still attempt to squeeze my ever growing ass into skinny jeans on special days but then I start getting gas pains and really regret my decision. What's a pregnant lady to do? I'm trying to maintain my dignity over here!

Here are my top tips for still being sexy while you're a backwards turtle:

1. Shower Daily--sometimes you're not gonna feel like showering, but because of your growing belly and boobs you need to. There's gonna be extra cracks and crevices and if you don't get in can get smelly.

2. Shave as much of your legs as you can (if you're comfortable get your man to help)--I am personally not okay with my husband shaving my legs. So I do as much of it myself as I can. This way once the baby is born and I get back into regularly grooming I won't have to bust out the weed whacker to take care of it!

3. Paint your nails (fingers and toes if you can)--I decided to paint my toenails and it was a little uncomfortable, I didn't do an awesome job, but I really did feel much more feminine and sexy after I was done. I also did my fingernails and felt equally as hot, although I just slapped clear polish on there. Again, if you feel comfortable get your man to do this stuff for you. But if you're comfortable with that you're also probably comfortable with sucking toes, which I ain't down with! There's also the option of going to a salon and getting these things done, I'm just cheap. One more thing...when using polish do it in a well-ventilated area and don't sniff the polish you freak!

4. Always brush your teeth--I shouldn't have to put this one on here but it's easy to be lazy when you're pregnant. So always go to bed with freshly brushed teeth, it's also gonna help make sure you don't get bloody gums and look like you're a vampire sucking on a fresh victim.

5. Makeup and eyebrows--These are probably 2 of the easiest ones. Keep your brows groomed, and apply makeup whenever you're leaving the house. It really will make you feel sexier and your husband will appreciate it. Save the scary makeup free face for days you're staying at home in your sweats.

6. Wardrobe--Invest in a few good maternity pieces. I have the advantage of wearing scrubs to work (awesome!), but if you work in a different setting get at least 1 pair of pants that are maternity and comfortable. I continued wearing my regular jeans with a Belly Band until the band started cutting into my love handles and making me look like a tube of vienna sausage. Then I gave in and got 1 pair of maternity jeans, and it's made such a difference! They are comfy and I feel better wearing cute sweaters and little cardigans with tanktops. If I'm just running out for quick errands I'll wear sweats, but at least make sure they are clean and match. While I do think actual maternity clothes are very expensive I've found ways around it. Buying stuff in 1 size larger than you normally wear is a good option. I've got a few sweaters and shirts that will get me through til summer gets here and then I can wear more dresses. Tanktops with cardigans are another option, as well as sweater dresses with tights. You don't need a ton of items and since shoes will still fit, I always try to wear heels when we are out and about. I feel alot sexier and although I've almost toppled over a few times it's worth it!

Hope you all had a great weekend, and remember BACKWARDS TURTLES CAN BE SEXY TOO!

Friday, January 13, 2012

Quote I found online that rocks!

I saw this quote/or poem or whatever you'd like to call it another blog I follow called
Although I'm not a mom yet this is some great advice that we can really all take to heart!

If I had my child to raise all over again,
I'd finger paint more, and point the finger less.
I'd do less correcting, and more connecting.
I'd take my eyes off my watch, and watch with my eyes.
I would care to know less, and know to care more.
I'd take more hikes and fly more kites.
I'd stop playing serious and seriously play.
I'd run through my fields and gaze at more stars.
I'd do more hugging, and less tugging.
I would be firm less often, and affirm much more.
I'd build self esteem first and the house later.
I'd teach less about the love of power, and more about the power of love.
-Diane Loomins


Sunday, January 8, 2012


I've always been a big water drinker, and during pregnancy I've really upped it. The only downside to the extra water is more frequent peeing. In the middle of the night, while at work, during movies, watching tv, on my daily walks, it's a bit annoying, but due to the growing baby in my tummy pressing on my bladder it's causing pressure which leads to more pee! Here's a funny story of what happened yesterday when my husband noticed my frequent peeing.
Mind you I had already peed about 6 times in less than an hour when this scenario took place.
Me: Hunnie I'm gonna head to the bathroom
Hubby: Again?
Me: Yes darling, remember I swallowed a melon and now it's resting on my bladder.
Hubby: Oh.
Hahahahha it was actually pretty funny, but now my sweet husband gets the idea. So whenever we're in the car and I say drive faster to get home, etc. I need to pee...he floors it!
Maybe later I'll resort to wearing Depends but not yet!

Thursday, January 5, 2012


So one of the things I constantly hear women talk about (non-pregnant women) is boob size. I wish mine were bigger, more perky, less perky, smaller, pointed in the same direction (yep, there's chicks out there that have googly eye boobs!). And the most logical option would be to alter your boobs if you're not happy with them right? Well, here's the best natural option if you'd like larger boobs...
Hahaha, okay I'm only being half serious about this, but WOW! When you get pregnant your boobs get enormous! Because I don't feel like buckling down and buying new bras yet I resort to strapping those babies into a regular ole bra every morning. This is a bit of a process as I have to squish em in the right place to ensure I have no nipple shots, but damn I look good! And this is the kind of cleavage women would pay good money for!
So any ladies out there interested in getting a boob job, seriously just get pregnant, you'll have the most voluptuous boobs ever, and they'll also do tricks. They'll leak milk, you'll have nipples the size of silver dollars, man I could go on and on! And daily they will grow to new sizes, you could go to bed a B cup and wake up a D cup, WHO-HOO!
So be natural girls!